issues

The problem with me is that I get hung up on people. People that I should forget about. I am so mad at myself for trying to save them in my imagination. I just don’t need them as a distraction. I am better of without them – as well as distractions and the people. I wish I could just say this to these people. That you ruined my day. And I don’t ever want to speak to you ever again. and I hate you and I still fucking want you to love me. I hate that I want to love. I want to be like Villanelle who does not need any fucking thing to make her I don’t even know what I am trying to say. I just don’t wanna be me and that’s all.